How is one year measured?
12 months?
52 weeks?
365 days?
8760 hours?
525,600 minutes?
Is it even a construct of time?
Or a measurement of moments?
Moments of joy and pain.
Moments of happiness and sadness.
Moments of terror and faith.
It's hard to believe that one year ago we were waking up to the horrifying news that Hamas terrorists had breached the border fence, infiltrated Israel, and we're on a genocidal murder campaign to kill as many Jews as possible.
From that moment the news of the waves of terror, abuse, mutilation, and rape were crippling. I had nightmares about terrorists coming through my windows... while we're sleeping, putting the kids to bed, or my number one fear was something happening while the kids were in the shower at their most vulnerable.
The fear was consuming to the point I met with a trauma counselor for advice and emotional support. (It's not PTSD if you're still in the trauma.) My world has been shaken to it's core. Any sense of safety and security was destroyed with the overwhelming images of Nakba terrorists slaughtering anything living in their paths (including family pets and farm animals).
The fear crippled me, but it now motivates me in two ways.
1. I see the most urgent need for light, love, understanding, and kindness in this world. The pain of the darkness, hatred, and violence is overwhelming and it both paralysing at times and motivating in others.
2. I have had my sense of safety shaken and have been carrying my gun everyday (except when I was out of the country) for a whole year... and every I pray I don't have to ever use it... but I will if I have to.
I don't know how to increase the light and love. I don't know how to quench the fires of antisemitism and the violent hatred that come along with it. But now, one year into a brutal war (that we didn't ask for or start) I feel the need to remind that the Jewish people are here to stay.
Today as we remembered this most difficult day, we sang, and danced, and prayed and felt connection.
We are resilient. 🫶🏼
One Love. ✌🏼 🕊️
Am Yisrael Chai. 🇮🇱
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