Day 68 - December 15, 2023 - Sunrise & Nightmares

Sunrise 5:55am

Sleep? Who needs sleep?

Apparently not me.

Siikwan has been having nightmares for about a week now. Tonight, was no exception.

Generally the dreams are about daddy being attacked or killed by "wild beasts", or "a lion", just that he got lost and couldn't find us, etc.

Many of Siikwan's friend's fathers have been away at war since the beginning of all of this. It seems as though the knowledge of what's going on here is starting to creep into her psyche despite our consistent attempts to keep her (them) protected. She doesn't know details of October 7, but she knows there's conflict around her. She knows that everyone else's father keeps going away for long periods of time and wonders about her own daddy. (Although we've explained to her that her daddy isn't going anywhere.)

My poor sweet girl. Childhood nightmares are awful. We are ok. We are safe. Daddy is home.

(One day mommy will sleep again.)